Posts tagged mythoughtlife
Posts tagged mythoughtlife
That’s the name of my real mother.
Mama and I looked her name up in Facebook. We checked almost a dozen names.
Until we got bored.
There’s just too many!
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Anyhow, you might not have a chance to read this Lyn Aguilar but I want to thank you for not aborting me; for leaving me in that small hospital where my mama works so she could find me.
I want you to know I am doing well and I don’t have any bitterness towards you. I realize you were so young when you got pregnant with me and you were afraid of your dad. You were still studying and I’m not sure if my father (your boyfriend) wanted me either.
I’m not asking anything from you. I just want to say thank you. God placed me in a wonderful family. I have a little brother named Maxxe. He’s in college now. I finished school almost 3 years ago and I’m now working for the Philippine Rugby Football Union.
Again, thank you for giving birth to me. Have a blessed life. :D
Junnel
But I had a surprisingly goodnight :)
I invited my friends to watch the PRFU 7s Rugby Football Tournament in PSC. I told they’ll get to know the sport of Rugby and as a bonus, get to see the gorgeous men in our National Team.
My long time crush (ahem twelve years) replied: “I thought the bonus was I get to see you. Haha.”
I WAS FLOORED.
First of all, he never ever flirted. With me specifically. EVER.
Shocked but it was nice. What a way to end a Friday night :)
In other news, I will be formally introduced to the National Rugby Team (Men’s) on Sunday. I’m excited but not fan-girl excited.
GO PHILIPPINE VOLCANOES! :D
Please help me.
Our dinner topic.
My brother’s studying to be a nurse as a pre-med course. Tomorrow, his class will learn how to conduct a breast examination. He’s a bit nervous. There are only two boys in his class and a whole bunch of girls. However, the other one guy is gay and is very comfortable with the females.
But that’s not the most awkward thing that happened tonight. After dinner, my mom and my brother practiced doing a breast examination. My mom, being the doctor, showed Max how to do it by examining my brother’s chest. THEN my mom asked him if he wanted to examine her chest. MY BROTHER AND I SHOUTED NO! Awkward!
I went inside my room when my mom asked my brother if he was still a virgin. Then she proceeded telling him he should be a virgin and should only lose his virginity to his wife. That was my cue. I ran to the living room. I asked my brother. ARE YOU SURE YOU’RE A VIRGIN?! WHAT DID I TELL YOU IF YOU AREN’T ONE?! I’M GONNA PUNCH YOU SO HARD, MY FUTURE SISTER-IN-LAW WILL THANK ME!
My brother just laughed. He told us he’s a virgin and isn’t going to let go of it till marriage.
My brother’s growing up . :”)
All my favorite things in the world.
Let’s do something crazy when we meet each other. I’m thinking maybe we could…
1. sing like crazy! I’m also down with dancing like insane kids. Harmonize with me and I’ll die happy.
2. eat french fries with tons of ketchup. McDonald’s french fries are the best.
3. take silly pictures! I could put funny make up on you and vise versa. It would be awesome hahaha!
4. play with baby animals! Puppies are my favorite but any baby animal will do. Those cute and fluffy things make my heart melt. Baby bunnies!
5. travel spontaneously. We could go anywhere and just sightsee or have a food trip as long as we have money.
6. talk for hours about anything. Tell me your story and I’ll tell mine. Tell me jokes and I promise I’d laugh at them even though they’re corny.
7. teach each other something new. I could teach you Mandarin. You could teach me anything you like. I like sports too so it’s okay if you teach me that.
8. cuddle. I love cuddling. Enough said.
9. cook together. I love cooking and I’d love to cook for you. Maybe you could help too. Or maybe you’re better than me so maybe you could teach me some recipes.
10. walk in silence. We could go to a nearby park or walk around the city with your hand in mine. No voices. No hurrying. I just want to spend time with you.
Let God be your certainty.
My brother and I sang Sam Tsui amd Christina Grimmie’s cover of “Just A Dream” by Nelly. It was uhh kinda bad. But we enjoyed singing so much! My mom was coaching us silly the whole time which made it all the more funny!
I love my family.
Anyways, I’m free. Anyone wanna talk? Message me! or Skype me!
Please take care and be safe! Update us if you can about your situation.
To my friends and followers in the Philippines (especially in Luzon):
You take care too! Still seeing heavy rains and strong winds from Ortigas. Hope all of you are safe! Text me or update me, okay?
Prayers for all of you! Stay safe!
At the end of the day, I told God I miss you. I just do. I don’t want to sound needy or clingy but I just miss you.
I wanted to write about what I think. The concert we both attended where we should have met again. Your family members in my church. My talent in singing. Your talent for drums. My poor parking skills and your exceptional driving skills. Your favorite worship songs and mine. My mama being a super mom and you adding her on Facebook. Your desire to learn how to sing and asking me to teach you. Your ministry and my ministry. Us being independent and not afraid even if we get lost. You’re scared of being lost in Metro Manila though it’s okay to be lost in the provinces in Region 1. I’m scared of being lost in the provinces though it’s okay for me to be lost in Metro Manila. You not using your personal number because your other number’s provider is the same as mine.
I’ve been controlling my mind so I won’t dwell in thinking that you might be the one because quite honestly I’m scared that God will say it’ll be you.
I’ve liked you from afar for 12 years but I can’t imagine us being together. So I rather not think about the subliminal messages you might be giving me or underlying reasons why you might want to talk to me. Because for all I know it’s just in my head! I have to guard my heart and thoughts from these things.
Because until God says it clearly that it’s really going to be you, I wouldn’t want to start anything but friendship.
We’ll it’s been 12 years since we met and 6 years since I last saw you.
Did my heart grow fonder?
Let’s see…
We talked to each other about random things till the wee hours of the morning yesterday with almost no intention of sleeping.
Yup. Fonder.
I realize that now. I want everything to be sure. I dislike uncertainty. I love bullet-points and step-by-step processes.
I’m not an organized person; you can definitely see that in my room. But I want everything to go according to plan.
This is why stepping out of the boat and walking on water scares me. Stepping out in faith unsettles me. I have many “what if this happens?”, “what if I make a mistake?”, “what if I get rejected.”
God is certain amidst this uncertainty. Despite the constant changes, God is constant and He never changes. I have to unlearn having a “plan b” and trust that no matter what happens, God’s plan ultimatley prevails. I need to learn to trust God’s character more.
“For the Lord is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.” Psalm 84:11
To the Anon that messaged me about planning and how it leads in disappointment:
You are right. Planning does lead to being hurt especially when you’re planning without God. But I can honestly say I’m not planning on having a family or husband anytime soon; in fact that idea scares me. What I am doing with my “Rules for My Future Family” is to set a standard for myself on how I would want to raise my family in the future. I’m not bent on making sure those rules are followed. I’m not even sure I would marry! Just like a birthday wish list, I wouldn’t be disappointed if I just get one or none at all out of the list. The fact that I was still given gifts is enough. I’m would be perfectly happy as long as God is with me.
